Retro Review: The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath

When the late Sylvia Plath’s novel The Bell Jar was released in 1963, it was considered groundbreaking. It focused on topics quite controversial just over 60 years ago, including ambition in young women in a time when women were supposed to desire only marriage and motherhood and dealing with horrifying mental health issues. Originally published under the name Victoria Lucas, Sylvia’s only novel is still considered a classic in the feminist canon. But how well does The Bell Jar hold up in 2024? I decided to read it and found out for myself.

Meet Esther Greenwood, raised in the Boston suburbs by her widowed mother, Esther is now in college, which is being funded by a wealthy local author. It is the summer of 1953, and Esther has procured an internship with the fictional women’s magazine “Ladies Day” in New York City. Though Esther’s days are filled with magazine-related activities, and her nights trying to socialize with her fellow interns, Esther feels disconnected and empty. She just can’t work up the excitement over this opportunity that most girls would give their eye teeth for. Esther is riddled with anxiety and depression. Can she shake out of this funk?

Several incidents occur during Esther’s internship that Plath goes into great detail to describe. Esther talks about the various assignments for “Ladies Day” the interns get to work on as well as the nice swag they all receive (not to mention the horrid food poisoning everyone gets at a luncheon). She also describes Esther trying to befriend her fellow interns like the flirtatious and sociable Doreen and the very pious and naïve Betsy, who Esther is more drawn towards. Esther also reminisces about the various scrapes she gets into when it comes to men, like when a local New York City radio host tries to seduce her, but later he decides to date Doreen. And towards the end of her internship, Esther is nearly raped at a country club party she attends with Doreen. Esther escapes but this causes her to throw out her new clothing and sends her further into despair.

After the internship ends, Esther returns to her childhood home. During this time, Esther is absolutely crushed when another scholarship opportunity, a writing course featuring a well-known author, does not come through. She is not accepted into this prestigious program. Esther tries to fill her time before school resumes in the fall by writing a novel. Yet, she thinks she lacks the life experience to write a proper book. And she also questions what her life will be like after she graduates from college. Up till then, Esther’s whole life has revolved around academics. Will she have a career or will so end up “just a wife and mother” as the fifties often dictated to women back then.

Esther continues to fall into deeper and deeper depression, not being able to sleep or attend to basic activities. She does see a psychiatrist for a while (whom she doesn’t exactly warm up to because she thinks he’s too handsome). And when this psychiatrist suggest electroconvulsive therapy, better known as ECT. The ECT doesn’t work, and Esther makes some half-hearted suicide attempt.

However, she does nearly die after she crawls into a cellar and takes far too many sleeping pills. When her mother can’t find Esther, it is assumed she has been kidnapped and possibly murdered, which the media takes note of. Once discovered, Esther spends time at several mental hospitals, the last one paid for by her college benefactor, the writer who is named Philomena Guinea. It is at this facility, Esther meets Dr. Nolan, a woman therapist, receives questionable treatments including insulin shots, and more ECT. She also meets another patient named Joan, and it is implied Joan is a lesbian who is attracted to Esther. Esther is not fond of Joan at all.

Esther also muses about her old boyfriend, Buddy. Buddy thinks the two might get married someday, but Esther won’t entertain the idea. Esther thinks Buddy is a hypocrite because he lost his virginity to another woman instead of staying pure for Esther. It is also found out that Joan also dated buddy (even though she may be heavily closeted).

During her sessions with Dr. Nolan, Esther bemoans the life women back then must lead and she wants to have the same freedom men have, which includes everything from having sex (Dr. Nolan suggest Esther be fitted with a diaphragm), and to have a full life outside of total domesticity. And as the The Bell Jar ends, Buddy visits Esther and wonders if he’s the cause of both Esther and Joan going crazy and ended up hospitalized. Perhaps he did have a part in it, but who cares? Esther is relieved when Buddy decides to end their non-engagement. Now she is free to really live.

While reading The Bell Jar, I could understand why it was so groundbreaking when it was published in 1963. It portrayed a young woman who had ambition beyond getting married and having oodles of children. It’s wonderful Esther is smart and has goals her life that don’t necessarily include marriage and motherhood solely. And as someone who has dealt with mental health issues, I appreciate a novel that spoke of one woman’s struggle and her fight to remedy herself.

However, in 2024, The Bell Jar just cuts different. For one thing, there is a lot of racism in this book. Esther talks about the ugliness of Peruvians and Aztecs. She also keeps referring to a Black orderly at the mental hospital as the Negro. He is never given a name or just referred to his profession as an orderly. Plus, I found Esther to be rather insufferable to the other women in the book whether it was her mother (who struggled greatly to raise her without Esther’s father) or looking down on a woman in the neighborhood who is raising a large brood of children.

Still, I do think The Bell Jar is an important work. Just keep in mind how things have changed since the fifties when it takes place, and in 1963, when it was published. And be grateful things have changed for women in the past sixty years…or have they? Hmm.

Book Review: Kids in America-A Gen X Reckoning by Liz Prato

Generation X has always been in the shadows. When we were younger, baby boomers grabbed the spotlight and never let go. They still seem to dominate media, business, and politics, especially, politics.

Okay, for a brief moment, sometime in the 1990s, Generation X had a moment to shine. We had grunge, the TV show “Friends,” and that Gap khakis swing commercial. But this moment didn’t last long, and once again, we were in the shadows. Nipping at the heels of our Doc Martens were the more noisy and populous millennials. Raised on Lunchables and participation trophies, millennials wanted to be noticed, and noticed they were. Most of us Gen X-ers went back into the shadows with misty memories of a time when MTV showed actual musical videos. Whatever.

Now for the most, Generation X accepts being ignored, and just goes about doing their thing, whatever that may be. Most of us hate to be defined and we certainly hate to be pigeonholed. No wonder marketers and the workplace ignore us. They just can’t figure us out.

But lately I’ve noticed a lot of Generation X-ers are saying, “Hey, we do exist!” and are creating podcasts, TikTok videos, and Gen X groups on social media. And I think it’s wonderful. Generation X-ers may be hard to figure out, but we have lived unique lives. Maybe it’s time for our stories be heard.

One of those Gen X-ers is writer Liz Prato whose voice should be heard, and she writes about her Generation X experiences in her book Kids in America: A Generation X Reckoning. Kids In America is a very personal collection of essay about coming of age at a particular time (1980s-1990s), and how it affected her as a Gen X-er.

Liz Prato grew up in Denver and graduated from Kent Denver Country Day in 1985, a private prep high school. She admits she grew up with privileges denied others, but that doesn’t mean she hasn’t faced any challenges or strife.

In Kids in America, Prato examines issues that were considered verboten when Gen X-ers were kids and coming of age, and writes about them with more clarity and the wisdom that comes with age. These issues include race, rape and sexual assault, mental health, family strife, and the odd messages we got from the pop culture we consumed.

In two separate chapters Prato relays the stories of two of her former classmates, Mina, who is Native American, and Alicia, who is Black. Years after graduation, Prato reconnects with both women and learns what it was like for both of them to be young women of color at a school most filled with upper class white kids. Though both Mina and Alicia admit they received good educations, they always felt like “other” at Kent Denver County Day.

Prato also examines the issues of rape, sexual assault, and the often murky communication between men and women when it comes to romance and consent. In “Sixteen Candles,” the geek allegedly had sex with a passed out drunk girl who couldn’t give permission, and at the time it was considered just teenage hijinks. And let’s not forget how so many of us swooned when Luke and Laura got married on “General Hospital.” Somehow the fact that Luke raped Laura on the floor of a disco didn’t necessarily put the kibosh on all the romance. We thought it was true love. We thought wrong. Prato also calls out a teacher who groomed, manipulated, and had sex with several of his female students in another chapter.

Mental illness and family strife is also observed in Kids in America. In one heartbreaking chapter, Prato describes in painful detail about her brother’s battles with mental illness. When Gen X was growing up, mental health issues were something whispered about and people rarely got the treatment they needed and deserved. Prato also talks about a friend’s brother getting caught up with a group of racist skinheads. Was he racist himself? Perhaps, but maybe what he was looking for the most was acceptance, which he got from these people. As awful as racist skinheads can be, I think a lot of us can relate to wanting to find a sense of belonging.

But not all essays are totally serious. Prato talks a walk down memory lane when it comes to the iconic TV Show Beverly Hills 90210. For one hour, viewers were immersed in the trials and tribulations of Minnesota transplants, Brandon and Brenda Walsh, and their friends at West Beverly High School. In issues of race, the West Beverly gangs attempts to be “woke” was both cringeworthy and very simple-minded. And the topic of sex was usually handled with double-standards. It was maddening when the Walsh parents gave Brandon an “Atta, boy!” when Brandon lost his virginity to his old Minnesota girlfriend, and how Mom and Pop Walsh branded Brenda a fallen women because she slept with her boyfriend, Dylan. It didn’t matter she was in love with him and they used protection. Brenda Walsh. What a slut!

Perhaps not all of Prato’s essays will totally connect with Gen X readers. A lot of us didn’t go to prep schools, and many never saw an episode of Beverly Hills 90210. But the issues she writes about are probably issues quite a few Gen X-ers have contemplated. Maybe it’s time to have a conversation about these matters.

Book Review: Easy Crafts for the Insane-A Mostly Funny Memoir of Mental Illness and Making Things by Kelly Williams Brown

Kelly Williams Brown had a really awful string of bad luck, over two years worth. Her marriage fell apart. She broke three of her limbs at three different times. Her father was diagnosed with cancer. And she felt completely upended over Trump’s election in 2016.

She didn’t just feel bummed out; she fell into a horrific morbid depression. Due to a failed suicide attempt, she ended up in an in-patient psych facility. It was there, Williams Brown started to face her demons and find the path to healing. Crafting was a part of that healing, hence, her latest book Easy Crafts for the Insane: A Mostly Funny Memoir of Mental Illness and Making Things.

According to Williams Brown, she’s the person who coined the millennial term “adulting.” Maybe, it’s because I’m a crotchety Gen X-er, but the term adulting makes my teeth itch. Guess what, kids? You don’t deserve a trophy for paying your bills or showing up to work on time.

But I digress.

I thought this book would be the ideal read for me. I’m quite the crafter myself, and I’ve been in the trenches when it comes to my mental health (depression, anxiety, and PTSD). However, I couldn’t get into it. Though Williams Brown is a talented writer, and I thought some passages funny and sad, I still found her at times to be shallow and self-absorbed. She’s clearly a privileged person and only briefly touches on the issues of how mental illness is looked down upon and the how access to proper mental health treatment eludes so many people.

Furthermore, I couldn’t feel too much empathy about her divorce. She selfishly buys a Miata without discussing it with her husband; she’s quite dismissive of his feelings and opinions. And after her divorce, she comes across way too desperate to be in another relationship instead of focusing on what made her marriage fall apart in the first place. And despite being marginally employed, she seems to have loads of money to play around with.

As for the crafts? Most of them seem more suited for children. Williams Brown will never be the millennial version of Martha Stewart. The craft tutorials are poorly written and not very creative; however, the illustrations are kind of cute.

I’m not a complete monster, and some passages of Easy Crafts for the Insane truly touched me. My heart broke when I found out about Williams Brown attempt to kill herself (thank goodness, her boyfriend at the time found her), and I really related to her time in a psych ward. And I’m happy she found solace in crafting. Creative projects do help us feel better in so many ways.

Still, I can’t quite recommend Easy Crafts for the Insane. Perhaps if Williams Brown had spent more time “adulting” by being more self-aware than self-absorbed I would have found this book to be a more solid effort.

Book Review: It’s Hard to Be a Person-Defeating Anxiety, Surviving the World and Having More Fun by Brett Newski

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I discovered Milwaukee-based musician, artist, podcaster, and now writer Brett Newski when I caught him on one of our local news programs. He recently published the book It’s Hard to Be a Person: Defeating Anxiety, Surviving the World, and Having More Fun, and I just knew I had to read it. I deal with anxiety myself, and I’m always on the look out for books, both serious and fun, on this topic.

It’s Hard to Be a Person is filled with Newski’s amusing illustrations on how to cope with anxiety and other pressures. His advice is both profound and goofy. It reminds us to take our mental health seriously and also have fun along the way. No matter how tough things can get with our anxiety in overdrive, we should take time out for ourselves. It’s okay to take a break from social media, get in touch with nature, reach out to friends and loved ones, and indulge in our hobbies and assorted pleasurable activities.

This is not a serious book that delves deep into mental health issues and that’s okay. Newski never pretends to be a therapist or expert on anxiety and depression. He’s just a fellow who has battled various demons and wants to share his experiences and how he’s coped with other people.

It’s Hard Be a Person is a charming little book, one to savor and share with others.

Book Review: The Midnight Library by Matt Haig

The Midnight Library by Matt Haig

Nora Seed’s life is going nowhere. Her cat has died, her love life is stagnant, and professionally, her career is nearly non-existent. Nora has spent her entire life trying to please others and excel at everything from competitive swimming to music to getting an education. Yet all of it seems to have gotten her in a perpetual downward spiral of regret, shame, and a feeling her life is worth nothing.

Filled with remorse, Nora decides to take her life. And what unfolds is expertly conveyed in Matt Haig’s beautifully written novel, The Midnight Library.

In-between life and death, Nora finds herself at the Midnight Library. Awaiting her is the kindly Mrs. Elm, a librarian from Nora’s childhood. The Midnight Library is no ordinary library. It is a place where one can open a book and be transported into an alternative universe, which reflect the various choices a person can make in one’s life if given another chance.

In one life, Nora is living with her husband (an old boyfriend) in Australia running a pub. In another, she’s an Olympic-winning swimmer and motivational speaker. Nora works as a glaciologist in another live, and is also a wildly successful rock star in yet another. But all of those lives aren’t as ideal as Nora may want. They are filled with sadness, estrangement, death, and bitterness.

But it’s there is one book Nora opens, and it just might be the perfect life if things had gone differently. In it, she’s happily married to a doctor named Ash. Together, they have an adorable daughter named Molly. And Nora is taking a sabbatical from her job to write a book on Thoreau. Could this be the life she’s always dreamed of? Or perhaps, she’s meant to live the life she was living, but one where she can make more positive choices and changes.

The Midnight Library is stellar. It at turns heartbreaking and uplifting. Haig has a way of writing that connects as well as tells a story due his deep well of empathy and compassion. The Midnight Library is It’s a Wonderful Life with a twist, with fantastical sci-fi moments. It’s a book to be savored, understood, and beloved, a book that resonates with people, places, and things that make our lives worth living.

Book Review: Notes on a Nervous Planet by Matt Haig

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“When anger trawls the Internet,
Looking for a hook;
It’s time to disconnect,
And go and read a book.”

-An Ode to Social Media from the book Notes on a Nervous Planet by Matt Haig

Years ago I discovered a wonderful other, Matt Haig. Haig is the writer of Reasons to Stay Alive, one of the best books I’ve read on the issues of depression and mental health.

We live in a very chaotic world. The pandemic is still going on. Mass shootings seem to be a daily occurrence. There is racial strife, there are people still unemployed, and our planet is becoming more corroded. We’re stressed and anxious, and our continuously connected digital world is making our lives a bit crazy. So that is why Haig’s 2018 book Notes on a Nervous Planet so timely.

Notes on a Nervous Planet is a collection of essays that reflects on how certain advancements in technology like social media can actually create difficulties in achieving happiness. He also examines how our addiction to technology can be a difficult one to break. And Haig fully confesses he has a hard time letting go even though he realizes getting wrapped up in an argument on Twitter or thinking you constantly have to be connected to your devices isn’t always a good thing.

In Notes on a Nervous Planet, Haig claims he’s not so much anti-technology, as he is human connection. We need to log off every once in a while, stop comparing to the images we see on Instagram, stop binge watching Netflix, and so on. Granted during the pandemic, it may be more difficult to connect face to face, but perhaps the pandemic is making us more aware the importance of seeing each other in the flesh rather than Zoom or Facetime, though I am grateful those things exist.

If there is a message in the pages of Notes on a Nervous Planet, it is this: We are special and we matter. We need to connect in what makes us uniquely human and interesting. We need to appreciate what we have and not focus on what we don’t have, especially when it comes to prestige and material wealth.

Haig writes in a way that is both comforting and relatable. He never lectures; he just lays it honestly and realistically. It’s okay to disconnect from the smartphone, from the laptop, and the television. Look for other things to stimulate you whether it’s cooking a fine meal, practicing yoga, or reading a good book. Now excuse me while I disconnect from this blog and take a walk.

Book Review: An Impossible Life-The Inspiring True Story of a Woman’s Struggle from Within by Rachael Siddoway and Sonja Wasden

Dealing with mental health issues of my own (depression and anxiety), I am always interested in how mental health issues affect others and those who love them. So when I saw Sonja Wasden and her daughter Rachael Siddoway on the morning news discussing their book on Sonja’s battles with bipolar disorder, I knew I had to read their book An Impossible Life. I sent off an e-mail to Sonja requesting a copy of her book to read and review and she was kind enough to send it to me. Here is my review.

On the surface, Sonja Wasden had it all. Her husband Mitch was a successful CEO of a local hospital. Her children Rachael, Alex, and Lincoln were healthy, smart, and accomplished. And she lived in a lovely upper-class suburb.

But looks can be deceiving. Sonja was barely covering up a devastating battle with bipolar disorder and it wad consuming every aspect of her life.

An Impossible Life begins in 2007 and Sonja is in the emergency room. She’s been brought against her will be her husband and father. She is spinning out of control and she needs psychiatric care. Sonja is defiant. There is no way she could be crazy. She’s just over-stressed, right?

Well, there is over-stressed and then there is mental illness. Sonja is fully engulfed in bipolar disorder and it’s destroying her.

What is bipolar disorder? According to my research, bipolar disorder is a mental illness where a person goes from one extreme mood to another. At times, a person can experience mania, or a very elevated mood. And a times, a person can fall into the pits of depression. People with bipolar disorder can have difficulties dealing with their home and/or work life. Even the simplest tasks like doing a load of laundry can be insurmountable. People with bipolar disorder often have troubled relationships and a multitude of other problems. Sadly, there is no cure, but bipolar disorder can be managed through various methods including medication and therapy.

An Impossible Life begins with Sonja describing her hellish stay at the psych ward in heartbreaking detail, claiming she wants to die.

But her hospitalization is only part of her story. An Impossible Life also tells the before and after of Sonja’s time in the psych ward.

She opens up about growing up in a well-to-do family, which had its own dysfunction and tragedy. She describes the early days of her marriage and young motherhood, a task she didn’t always accept willingly. She wanted the life of a carefree teenager.

Sonja recalls in agonizing detail of in inflicting self-harm with knives, battles with binge eating, and spending sprees that made a serious dent in the family finances. She was also tortured by suicidal thoughts and attempts.

But most of all An Impossible Life describes how her mental illness and struggle with recovery impacted her family and loved ones. She also conveys how bipolar disorder affected her own sense of self-worth. Sonja is unflinchingly honest on how she coped with her internal battles and the expectations of the real world. She’s also quite honest with the problems she had with some healthcare professionals who didn’t always have her best interests at heart.

Going in zigs and zags Sonja found the methods and resources to help her get better. She will never fully recover from bipolar disorder, but she has improved greatly. And her loving family and friends continue to support her. It’s very touching.

An Impossible Life is not an easy book to read. At times I found myself gobsmacked over what Sonja went through and how she acted. At other times I had to put the book down, too overwhelmed. I felt so much for Sonja and her family.

I hope An Impossible Life opens up a dialogue about mental health issues and inspires compassion. I believe it is a book that should be read by those who deal with mental illness and those who care for them.

*Sonja Wasden and her daughter Rachael Siddoway have traveled all over the United States donating their book to various libraries. An Impossible Life is part of a series, including An Impossible Wife: Why I Stayed, An Impossible Childhood: Rachael’s Story, and An Impossible Mother: Lincoln’s Story.

Book Reviews: All the Good Things by Clare Fisher

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Beth has done a bad, bad thing. And while she ruminates about the tragedy she brought on herself while paying the ultimate price, she goes on a journey of healing and redemption.

In Clare Fisher’s novel All the Good Things, Beth is seeing a counselor while serving a prison term. Convinced she is completely worthless, Beth’s counselor, with both compassion and wisdom, tells her to write a list of all the good things that have to her.

This is pretty difficult for Beth. In her young life, Beth has dealt with tragedy, abandonment, and heartbreak. Among these include being deserted by her mother, mental health issues, abusive relationships, one crappy job after another, and a series of dreadful foster homes.

But as she looks back on her life, Beth remembers the things. She’s very creative, she has a network of supportive friends, she’s felt the embrace of true love, and her sweet baby girl who she loves with great intensity.

Beth writes this list in a journal form that comes across like a series of letters to her daughter. And as he writes these letters she comes to terms with the lowest moments in her life, the moments that gave her life purpose, and one horrible mistake that altered her life. Now she’s asking herself is she can be forgiven and can she be redeemed?

All the Good Things kept me riveted, page after page. Beth’s story both broke my heat and uplifted my spirits.

Fisher’s debut novel is written with a great deal of clarity that fulfills all the senses. Beth is written as a fully-dimensional character, as are the tertiary characters.

Obviously I’m not going to reveal why Beth is being punished and in prison. But you just might gasp out loud when she admits her crime…like I did.

Book Review: The View from Flyover Country-Dispatches from the Forgotten America by Sarah Kedzior

When not being ignored by the two coasts, flyover country is being celebrated as where the “real Americans” live, usually by conservative pundits. And to these pundits, real Americans are defined as white and for the most part living in the suburbs or rural areas who define themselves as conservative Christians.

But not so fast, living in flyover country, I know we are a much more diverse bunch and so does Sarah Kedzior, which she sums up in her collection of essays The View from Flyover Country-Dispatches from the Forgotten America.

A reporter for Al Jazeera America and residing in St. Louis, Missouri, Kedzior’s essays focus on such thorny topics as race, income inequality, the friction among generations, education, foreign policy, the media, women’s issues and so much more.

Kedzior starts off The View from Flyover Country with an introduction rolling out what her collection of essays is all about, giving the reader a clear idea on what to expect among its six parts.

In Part One, Flyover Country, Kedzior defines flyover country and topics such as how expensive cities are killing creatives and hipster economics.

Part Two, Post-Employments, explains issues of survival, how workers are paying a steep price, zilch opportunities and how sometimes these issues make people do extreme things like lighting themselves on fire.

Race and religion define Part Three, where Kedzior writes about the tragedy of Trayvon Martin’s murder, Black Lives Matter, and what happened in Ferguson in the wake of Mike Brown being gunned down by police.

In Part Four Kedzior examines the broken promise of a higher education, and how school debt has crippled countless smart, hard-working and talented graduates. She also decries the deplorable pay of adjunct professors who work tirelessly to educate our students.

Part Five is a careful examination of our media and how gaining access seems to be only available to the well-connected elite (don’t I know it!) and the problem of fringe media in the Internet age.

Foreign policy makes up Part Six when it comes to gender, Edward Snowden, the situation in Iraq and basic human rights.

Finally, Kedzior sums things up with a standout essay on the importance of complaining. If people didn’t complain, women wouldn’t have the right to vote, black people would still be at the back of the bus, and gay people wouldn’t be able to marry those they love.

While reading The View Flyover Country, I marked several pages with post-it notes and wrote down some key quotes and passages in my well-worn notebook. Kedzior writes in a down-to-earth way with smarts and clarity. She truly cares about these issues and implores us to also care about them.

The View from Flyover Country is a treasure of a book and is ideal for both the college classroom and book discussion groups everywhere.

I Read It So You Don’t Have To: How to Murder Your Life by Cat Marnell

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Whenever I write a book review I remind myself an actual human being wrote this book-remember to be empathetic in your review, be fair, be firm.

But when it comes to Cat Marnell’s memoir How To Murder Your Life…well, screw being nice. As the kids say, “I can’t even.”

Now I’m a pretty caring and compassionate person, especially when it comes to someone in a cruel grip of addiction and mental health issues. I’ve read countless books about people dealing with these issues and I know people in real life who have dealt with these issues. And have offered an open-mind and a shoulder to cry on to them.

Knowing a smidge about Marnell due to my interest and experience in both fashion and media I picked up How to Murder Your Life thinking it would be a book about a young woman’s harrowing journey through addiction while trying to make a living in two very challenging industries while also dealing with personal issues like family, education, friends, love and various mundane tasks like paying the bills and making sure the fridge is full.

I thought How To Murder Your Life would convey how Marnell finally realized she had a problem and had a someone or several someones intervene and tell her she needs to get help. I thought it would be a tale of Marnell agreeing to get help, go to rehab and at turns deal with breakthroughs and breakdowns finally arriving on some type of sobriety and doing everything in her power to stay that way. I expected wisdom, clarity, vulnerability and redemption. I was at the very least, hoping for a well-written book.

I got none of these things.

Marnell grew up posh and privileged in the DC area. Her family is both loving and at times infuriating. Marnell, as a child, seems to be silly, fun, creative and like any kid, a bit of a handful. Well, aren’t we all? From a very young age Marnell is interested in the fashion/beauty industry and develops a passion for magazines, going to the point of creating her own ‘zine.

When she reaches her teens she decides to attend boarding school and soon after goes into a tailspin, some of it where she is truly a victim (she loses her virginity to what seems to be date rape), but most of it where she is a willing and enthusiastic participant. Lazy, obnoxious, and fully entitled, Marnell barely graduates high school, can’t quite get into a proper college and gets addicted to various substances thinking it makes her dangerous, edgy and glamorous like she’s the Edie Sedgwick of the modern age.

But despite her lack of education, talent and mastery of anything other than taking an alphabet of any drug she comes across, Marnell gets an enviable gig working for Lucky magazine. Much of her easy entry is due to being privileged, white, thin and spoiled and well-connected. Granted, this isn’t exactly rare in the world of media and fashion.

Thus, Marnell continues to be a complete trainwreck, professionally, personally and romantically. From her early days with Lucky to later on where Marnell is working for the website xoJane under the “legendary” Jane Pratt.

Drugged out her gourd, Marnell’s life is a collection of missed deadlines and missed periods. But instead of being horrified by her life, she seems almost proud. And sadly, she is coddled by nearly everyone in her realm and as How to Murder Your Life reaches its conclusion, Marnell is still a fucking junkie!

Well, isn’t that a trip? Is How to Murder Your Life well-written? No. Marnell’s writing is distraught, callow, unenlightened and so purple Prince would probably say, “Okay, that’s enough.” And the name dropping of celebs, high priced cosmetics and designer duds just made me roll my eyes. Your not only one to apply MAC to your lips, Marnell. It doesn’t make your special (As I type this I’m wearing Chanel no. 5. Yes, you may touch the hem of my ancient Limited sweater).

Fortunately, there are countless on books about drug addiction that are worthy of your time. How to Murder Your Life is clearly not one of them.